Monday, August 24, 2009
I woke up today, not going to school but staying at home instead. No doubt I am regretting the mistake now, because at home I let my thoughts loose. Probably not good if you've got submissions tommorrow. But I didn't care much now, as I do every other time. 'Next time I'll be better, I promise' to myself.
Then again I've read somewhere that 'promises, like lives can be bought oh-so-very cheap.' I've had one primary school kid (imagine) on messenger wanting to buy a life for $5.20. I sigh as I ignored him and closed the messenger window before going on with my work.
I've got studies to complete, sketches to be drawn, and an essay to write.
YY once asked, 'In the state you're in now, would you prefer mugging or examinations?'
'Examinations, throw me one anytime.'
'What if it's something you totally detest, like maths?'
'Sure, anything but THIS.
It's more predictable, exams are always exams. There are always hotter topics, probability that you can bet on. Take a risk, have a gamble, and wait for the clear result. With this I can never feel too bad if I fail. I can always reassure myself that it was just a lost gamble.'
With this, I can never take a gamble because there are no clear bets to bet on. Too many factors are involved, and its not just the 'book, you and test'. It's 'you, design, decisions, presentation, audience-response'.
What can be marked in a test? Your answers. Perhaps your handwriting and legibility.
What can be marked in a critique? Practically everything. Even your behaviour can be hauled up and taken for a beating.