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I opened my eyes, last night, and saw you in the low light
Walking by the bay, on the shore
Staring up at the planes that aren't there anymore
You happened to look, and see, the tunnels all around me
Running into the dark underground

Monday, March 30, 2009

I'll be swapping numbers with my brother soon. So uh, I'll update you guys when I change it okays?

I've been sensing that ALOT is wrong recently, even for friends whom I haven't seen for quite some time. It just sucks, being out of the loop, but for now, it can't be helped. Not much anyway.

It's just weird. But I guess that it's just one of those times that everyone grows up, and this is just this weird jiggly phase that people go through before evolving into another form. ( YAY, POKEMON FOR THE WIN! )

Sometimes, somethings in life are not meant to be. Not because of fate or destiny or luck or whatever shitty things that people believe will affect their lives, but because of the circumstances, the people.

We met, by circumstances.
We clicked, because of a common point in life at that point of time.
We stayed together, because we wanted each other's support in times of need. Humans are social creatures by nature, that's not anything new.

And when we fell apart, it's probably because of one of the many many complicated and delicate strings holding us together broke. Things went downhill since, and never got back up again.

Patience and forgiving is not what everyone has. Everyone has different principles.

Some can't forgive, even for one wrong mistake.
Some can forgive, for once, or twice.

Do we have the effort, the energy, the time, the compassion? In this fast-paced society, it just seem like its just not worth all these for a fellow being who got side-tracked and needs some help from those who cares.

Alot of good things, good times don't stay for long in our lives. Maybe this is just one of the many that will have to go in time. But, I don't really mind, cos I really did cherish the peaceful past. I don't need the forever, all I need is only the bittersweet memories.

Hope that Vin can let go easily enough when anything in her life has to leave her. x3

O: It's damn nice. But I didn't know JJ was so... talkative.

Not that I expect him to sing as though I'm playing a CD, but, a few of his chats are quite... boring.

The fans from Hong Kong are the most active ones there. Screaming and cheering. Singapore fans on the other hand, are not so active. Weird man! Support local talent! (That's why I went.)

I sat there like I'm watching TV. Like when MTV plays those concerts by singers at Fisherman's Port.

I'm not a very high person to start with, so don't blame me. ):

The seats are okay, nicer than the Singapore Expo's. But I hope they are inclined slightly furthur back. Sitting there for 3 hours plus? Your back gets sore. The sound system is fantastic compared to Singapore Expo's. I love it. :D

I didn't know JJ's already 28 ): So old. ): And it was his birthday on the day of the concert or the day before.

Loved the encore songs more than anything else man! Like, 曹操,我还想你。I left towards teh end of 我还想你 cos I sill gotta work on Sunday. There were fans requesting JJ to sing 10 songs for his encore! O: JJ was like, “我很想,可是我怕你妈妈会骂你。”Lol. If he really sang 10 songs... Everyone no need to go home already! :D

Left around 11.20+. Never knew it could be so tiring.
Saturday, March 28, 2009

WHAT THE FUCK. BY2's SPECIAL GUEST IN THE CONCERT.

I don't want to go already.

Hope they don't sing.

I'm going to JJ Lin's concert today. But after work, I'm sooooo uber tired.

His concert better not disappoint me! I still have to work on Sunday. ): I'm not going to waste my precious sleeping hours/ resting hours on boring stuff.
Friday, March 27, 2009

I celebrated my 3rd and last birthday celebration with YP at CWP on the 25th. The original planning done by YP was to have WC and WQ come as well.

But I think WQ can't make it and WC was grounded at home. And he didn't tell YP earlier! ): YP felt abandoned. Hahas.

It was raining VERY heavily that day also. Damned it. I can't be bothered to dress nicely cos I was in a rush. I went out in my Sec3 Class-T. Heh. YP waited for me for an hour and a half for me to knock off from work and celebrate it for me. ): Sorry love. Didn't know I was gonna be THAT late!

That was just so sweet of her. I feel so guilty for making her wait for me, and the gifts she and SY got me is just so absolutely fabulous!

I LOVE THE CARD YP.

Alot of effort went into it, I CAN TELL.

My efforts at celebrating her B-Day seemed shabby compared to hers! In fact, mine was a lil bit stupid. I don't know how to plan! ):

SHE GOT ME THIS BIRTHDAY CAKE FROM POLAR PUFFS AND CAKES. HELLO KITTY!

That made it my 4th? Or 5th YEAR IN GETTING HELLO KITTY CAKES FROM POLAR!

Yay!

Love you PING! That was one of the sweetest thing anyone had done for me! I AM SO TOUCHED!

Love you lots. Can't thank you enough! x3

jia_junjj@hotmail.com said (23/3/2009 at 11:21 PM):
*HELLO ! ITS 11:15 RIGHT NOW AND IM WISHING YOU AN ADVANCE HAPPY BIRTHDAY !
jia_junjj@hotmail.com said (23/3/2009 at 11:22 PM):
*I TRIED TO STAY TIL 12 BUT WELL , I GUESS I CANT CAUSE IM TOO TIRED AND THERES SCH TMR
*AND IM AFRAID IF I HAVE NO TIME TO ONLINE TMR , HEHE SO ANYWAY , HAPPY BIRTHDAY !
*HAVE FUN K ? (:
jia_junjj@hotmail.com said (23/3/2009 at 11:23 PM):
*(:
jia_junjj@hotmail.com said (23/3/2009 at 11:23 PM):
*GOODNITE ! EH WAIT , BY THE TIME U SEE THIS MAY BE MORNING ALR , SO GOOD MORNING !


Oreo's actions touched my heart! I never got someone who knows me just simply online remembering my birthday. Plus, I don't remember telling him when's my birthday! :D
Monday, March 23, 2009

Thanks to these people who still remember that I am still alive. :D But there are some arses whom I'd rather them think that I'm dead.

Psh.
Saturday, March 21, 2009

I hope that there'll be something holding on to me, even though I'm out by myself.

(Not ghosts or anything spooky okay.)

Who says girls have suckier driving skills? Watch out man. If it's really true then I'm gonna knock into you. Buy expensive insurance before then.

I'm going for manual next year!
Friday, March 20, 2009

THANK YOU TXKs!
Loves Vin, SH, MX, Nana, JL, WC for celebrating with me today. Thanks for the gifts too! I love them all.


I can never say thank you to you guys enough. Everyone took the time out today to celebrate for me. It was a great day, and thanks for planning all these great stuff for me. I was very touched when I saw SH, Vin, and MX coming through the door with a birthday cake.

I would've forgotten that today is not really my birthday if not for Vin reminding me that it was still 4 days away!

Even though we stayed in SH's house most of the day, and we didn't go out to roam the streets of Singapore, I felt it was still interesting. :D We watched a movie, and played Dai-di after that!

WC ton-ed the night before because he went to a chalet. And he was quite mad today. O: Towards the end when nobody wanted to play cards, he played Blackjack by himself! And he kept saying that I always win, when I'm not playing! He was actually playing for all of us when Vin, SH and I was crapping away!

It was nice to get back with the TXK, especially with Vin, and my innocent baby SH. And SPECIAL thanks to JL, who thought he was the only guy turning up initially!

It was a fun day today. And I love you guys man!

And even more special thanks to Daddy. For getting me my dream phone as my birthday present. (Despite what I've done. Sorry. I will make it up to you, I will help you get your new car in the future. I promise.) I love him!

Thursday, March 19, 2009

I SEE YOU, AND YOU SEE ME.
I BEAT YOU, AND YOU BEAT ME!
Wednesday, March 18, 2009

I don't know how some people get their licences. Like seriously, I doubt they even know their theory.

This female driver (shame on her, throw the female gender's face -.-) actually banged into the back of my dad's lorry. And bloody drove her car forward even more to scratch her car up even more.
That's stupid part number one.

Then she insisted that my dad banged into her, and that we're reversing quickly. Oh puh-lease, she's driving this Perodua Kancil (M'sia car), and all we felt when we knocked into her car was 2 GENTLE bumps. BUMPS OKAY. (And I thought we bumped into a coconut tree. -.-) And she got this long scratch on her car, spanning a door's length right to the back of her boot. (She did most of the scratches herself, the way her car's paint rubbed off on the back of our lorry? It would just take a retard minutes to figure it out.)

It was drizzling, so my dad was driving slowly, (thank heavens for that) and he saw the car not moving. So he reversed and the car zoomed to the back of our lorry suddenly. Thus, self-pawning. Stupid part number 2 explained.

If, we were reversing quickly, we would've torn half her car apart. The damage would be greater, and I won't daresay that she would leave her car in one piece. If you know Perodua's cars, you'd know their fairly small. Imagine a lorry reversing at high-speeds. -.-
(DIE CAR DIE! :x) Here's stupid part 3.

I'd tried to be as hmm, unbiased as I'm posting this. But well. You've only got one side of the story. So choose to believe it or not yourself.

The ending was that Dad paid $250 for her self-pwnage. Paid for her new door and all. Considering her car type. $250 can do wonders. In Malaysia.

(All the time I was trying to get him to call the police and get a claim from insurance. Let her suffer abit from all those stupid adminstration stuff from claiming her own damages from Singapore. Dad is too soft-hearted!)

The epicness of it all. Why did I say that she doesn't know her theory?
She doesn't even know what's the proper way to start her stupid car.
Monday, March 16, 2009

I just visited my blog just now, and seriously, I am very shocked. O: I love you people for tagging! -inserts lots of hearts- I can't be bothered to get online recently cos I was down with flu, lethargic and falling apart.

I can't believe a person can produce that much mucus in a day. Frigging grossed me out. I've never had such a bad flu before. -.- I can't breathe. I'm not kidding. 2 blocked nostrils! Got the flu bug for the third day in running now. Hope I will wake up breathing normally tomorrow.

YP koped all my Mondays. Alot of Mondays in a row! O: Hahas. Cute girl.


HAPPY BELATED 17th PING!
&& I hope you like that apple thingy. It's not much, but I'll take a break from giving so many necklaces for these few years.

Blasted handphone didn't send my birthday congratulations to her yesterday. I'm a bad friend. ):

Well, anyways, I went out with her and WQ today. We went to JP to have lunch/dinner. We ate at BENTEN! Cute name. Might have something to do with the show Ben10 on Cartoon Network! I think the food's not bad, and I shared a chocolate ice-cream with her.

Vin went for enrolment today! While messaging her today I realised that I sent the wrong thing to SP. -.- Ok, if it's really wrong then I'll send another one. It's not like I haven't paid my school fees. :D

My dad is pro. O: When we went to the bank last minute, we didn't have cash, nor cheque. And dad blamed me for not bringing his cheque book out! Downright funny! It's his cheque book, not mine! I was like, 'oh shit, bank closing already! And tomorrow's enrolment.' But it was super lucky that my dad can 'withdraw' cash and pay the bank by producing his IC and signing a piece of paper!

It was so cool! I feel so inspired to open an account with Standard Chartered in the future. :DD (I know those 2 issues have no link, but still, I just feel like it. I like the no bank passbook thingy.)
Monday, March 9, 2009

Fuck you very much
by Lily Allen
Look inside, look inside your tiny mind
and look a bit harder cause we’re so uninspired
so sick and tired of all the hatred you harbor
so you say it’s not okay to be gay well
I think you’re just evil
you’re just some racist who can’t tie my laces
you’re point of view is medieval
Fuck you, fuck you very very much
cause we hate what you do
and we hate your whole crew
so please don’t stay in touch
fuck you, fuck you very very much
cause your words don’t translate
and it’s getting quite late
so please don’t stay in touch
do you get, do you get a little kick out of being
small-minded?
you want to be like your father
it’s approval you’re after
well that’s not how you’ll find it
do you, do you really enjoy living a life that’s so hateful
cause there’s a hole where your soul should be
you’re losing control of it
and it’s really distasteful
Fuck you, fuck you very very much
cause we hate what you do
and we hate your whole crew so please don’t stay in
touch
Fuck you, fuck you very very much cause
your words don’t translate
and it’s getting quite late
so please don’t stay in touch
You say, you think we need to go to war
Well you're already in one.
Cause it's people like you that need to get sued
No-one wants your opinion
Fuck you, fuck you very very much
cause we hate what you do
and we hate your whole crew
so please don’t stay in touch
Fuck you, fuck you very very much
cause your words don’t translate
and it’s getting quite late
so please don’t stay in touch


I got hooked on Lily Allen's songs recently, and I'm listening to them all. This song is simply a classic. :D

I actually dreamt of me cleaning up my room, systematically. O:

Sounds ridiculous!

Me cleaning up my room? And doing it systematically? That's simply impossible.
Saturday, March 7, 2009

I've got a very unstable personality sometimes.

Ok, maybe my mood contributes to it. But I feel like speaking in garbage language now. Something like a mix of all the languages I know, and speak in a way that not even I myself know what I am talking about.

And maybe swear abit. :O

My right wrist feels like its been overworked or what. It's been feeling as though the nerves there are strained. Whenever I bend it up and down, it gives me the "Owhh! What are you mad woman trying to do!" feeling.

Ok, I am exaggerating abit. But seriously, I think there's something not right with it. -jabs the side of my wrist absent-mindedly-
Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Today I went home at 4+pm! This is how busy and how cramped the space is.

I have to pack and work non-stop since I start work. O: After spamming tags and such. I think I should retire to sleep. I am seriously tired.
Monday, March 2, 2009

It's alright Vin. There's always a next time! :D
Materialistic desires can never be satisfied. (:

And no PINK laptops for me. Please. ):