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I opened my eyes, last night, and saw you in the low light
Walking by the bay, on the shore
Staring up at the planes that aren't there anymore
You happened to look, and see, the tunnels all around me
Running into the dark underground

Saturday, January 31, 2009

I never thought I'd missed out on anything worth missing on in my life.

But I realised that I have no social life. Zilch.

I'm only free when everyone else is not. Yeah, and I'm serious about that. Work eats up alot of my time. Indeed time passes quickly when I spend it that way.

In a funny way, I am jealous of other teen's life. The unlimited amount of free time they have.
Yep. Just this bit.

I wish to have more time.

I am starved!
Friday, January 30, 2009

Hahas, it seems like alot of people are thinking of the 38Kias as a gang.

Hell no it's not! It's just a gang of good friends, and a valuable friendship forged between 6 girls in Japan.

And it hurts to know I'll be missing a SECOND meeting with the girls. And it's something unavoidable. Hell!

I hope they won't think I'm standing them up all the time. ):

I really really wanted to go out with the girls, just that I have a family renunion and we have to lao yu sheng.

-sighs-

This JAE thingy.

All that it's supposed to be. All that its for.

I felt that it really taught me alot of lessons.

Life lessons.

I saw how a decision can really impact your entire life. And felt how insecure I was, when I made my choices independently. As hesistant as I am, I made all the choices to the best that I could. Afterall, this is my life, I should start to take charge of it now.

Plus, it's always comforting to know that there's always be somebody there for me.

Even though Dad could not help me in making the exact choice, he still stood by and gave me suggestions.

Thanks to some really helpful peeps who gave me hope when all I saw was darkness ahead.

Thanks to (in scrambled order):
Dad
Aunts
SH
SY
HY
HX
YH
QL
JL
and even Durian! (No I am not thanking a fruit, it's actually someBODY!
:D)

I may not be the best, but at least I try.

Okay.



This is what I got posted to.



In case anyone is wondering. (Well. At least I know Jubb is :D)



Singapore Poly's Architecture Course!




Oh my oh my. What a surprise :D
Thursday, January 29, 2009

I seriously hope that I will not have any schedules clashing lately. I love my family and my peeps.

I'm gonna so make sure that I won't miss a single one! :D
Monday, January 26, 2009

2300Hrs now.

3 hours more before I'm heading out to work.


And it's only gonna be the 2nd day of CNY.
Sunday, January 25, 2009

Happy CNY!




Oh yes, I think I lost my home's cordless phones. ._.
Saturday, January 24, 2009

I'm so busted this CNY.

I'm so tired sometimes I'm falling alsleep all over my house. ): I was watching Nat Geo, some documentary on black holes when I fell alseep. D:!

Ahh. Aghast.
Monday, January 19, 2009

Y'know, when I told my Dad that I will be going to the class chalet and will be staying there for 3Days & 2Nights, he replied:

I thought you failed Maths? And you still have the mood to relax at chalet?

Oh my Daddy. Now your daughter does what she says. She said she won't cry even if she get whatever shitty results, and she didn't. The lessons 2, 3 years ago taught me alot, and I grew stronger. Cos that episode didn't kill me. That's for sure.



I did pretty well. I did far better than what I had expected for all my results except 1. Now ain't that a reason for celebration? :D

Ok. Now on to the chalet. The trip there was long enough, and we ended up not being able to get the keys because we have to get the NRIC of the booker.

The first night, was nothing much actually, except drinking and eating cup noodles for dinner. Thanks QW for the drink. :D

Oh yes, and I played mahjong with XY, Addison and WC. I am the mahjong noob. I completely have no idea how to play it.

When we were just getting bored, we climbed out of the window onto the chalet's porch. The night sky is so unbelievably clear. I never thought I'd be able to see stars that clearly in the light-polluted nightsky of Singapore.

One surprise was that WC knew how to look at stars!

The next morning we went to Changi Beach, cycled and stuff. I didn't know Addison didn't know how to cycle! o.o We all tried to teach him. But I think JL is really patient to be able to teach him. Addison made progress! :D But he just had no confidence, and keeps stopping by himself. -.-

We also went to play at the beach, and tried burying Addison upright. WC, JL, Addison, and even me was absolutely soaked! XY, JH and QW refused to get into the water, even my attempts to sabotage QW didn't work. ):

The noon was quite boring, and we were just playing Dai-di, and the longest game of Cheat. Either we suck at it, or we are too pro at it. :D

I tried JL's electric guitar too. It was damn fun. But I still don't know how to handle a guitar. -.-

The BBQ later at night was ok. The Long Island Tea JL bought was too strong for him. He didn't even let me try. -.- His ears turned red, like his T-shirt. We went onto the porch again! Hahas.

We left damn early the next morning. Don't ask why :D

Ok. I have not been online since I got my results until today. Hence the no updates, and the no reply to the tagboard and tags.

One reason was because of the class chalet. They actually booked the chalet on the wrong date, just so coincidentally it clashed with the release of O Level results.

It'd take a really brave/ proud soul to put their scores on public display. So, I am something that falls in between the cracks. Like I always do. So, me, being the silly satisfied girl I suppose I am... I am going to declare it here. Anyway, who cares about this spot in the WWW? :D

Here is it:

L1R5 - 20 -Eligible for JC! The lousiest of the lot though.
L1R4 - 13 -Did your jaw drop? I did.
ELR2B2 - 16 -They say the L1R4 and ELR2B2 is the same. But it isn't for mine.


My scores confound me.

I figured that though I didn't do very well, my last minute "chionging" did me much good.

POA SUCKS. HOW CAN SOMETING THAT I'VE GOTTEN A F9 FOR PRELIMS GET A B4 FOR Os? IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE!
I PUT IN MORE EFFORT IN FOR MATHS, AND ALL I GOT WAS THIS LOUSY D7. WHERE'S THE 'YOU REAP WHAT YOU SOW'?! I DIDN'T EVEN GIVE A DAMN ABOUT POA UNTIL THAT MORNING!

This is crap, I don't know what to believe in anymore.
Thursday, January 15, 2009

OMIGOSH. ):

I TIO FUCKED UP BY MATHS.

I failed EMaths again. But okay, I tried my best, and there's nothing more for me to do. Zilch.

These are things that cannot be undone by Ctrl+Z. The only thing I can do now is to look at the bright side of life. (Other than the fact that my love for things that can fly have to stop now.)
And apply for courses that I can get into. I didn't regret.

And I'm extremely happy with my results. I am satisfied. Even though I am upset for EMaths, I did not cry. Like I said I won't.

But hangon there for a moment.

Air stewardess don't have to pass EMaths right?
Thursday, January 8, 2009

I went out with the 38 gang today, and it's TOTALLY UNEXPECTED that SY will want to ask me to go SP on the SAME day the 38s asked me out to TP.

I'd love to view BOTH of the Open Houses. But I already agreed to the 38Kias earlier on. Seems like Sy had been late twice. This is the second time already, and it's so freaking coincidental that it freaks me out.

Crap man, I really missed SY. And all I ONLY caught a glimpse of SY during her band camp. She way too down below to look at her properly. How one floor and half a banner can do wonders.

Anyways, here's my day with the 38s. We pretty much walked around TP, nothing much caught my interest, but at least we get to see the campus. Not too shabby. But we went a tad too late, and they were already closing for the day.

We then decided to hop over to Ikea Tampines, for their Hotdogs and Ice-Cream. After 38-ing and finishing our food, YH called her friend to pick us up at Ikea.

When we asked her what car her friend drives, she said "Honda. Don't know front/ back licence plate is yellow colour one".

Then it was a Nissan Slphy! D:

-faint-

So we joked and asked, not Honda meh. Hahas. It was hilarious.

But oh well, free ride to Woodlands, and for YH, a free ride home. Who can resist?

I think I will be going to visit NYP tomorrow night. For 38s. And for SH. o-O
Friday, January 2, 2009

I think I am starting to enjoy telling people that I am no longer schooling.

Its true to a certain extent, or totally true. Depending on what context you use it in.

Hehs.
Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy New Year.

Happy 2009 People. :D